Weird

it is weird to be a grandfather
but no-longer a grandson
and probably weirder still
to be a great grandfather
but no-longer son
and maybe no-longer brother
and maybe no-longer husband
to have a son
that is a grandfather
as the cycle trundles

our identities both fade
into inconsequential history
and simultaneously thin
into time and future
until we are light as feather
and can go where we please
with neither baggage
nor fixed destination
and the wind that sung
in our no-longer childhood
sings to us again
songs of carriage and passage
and we must relearn
the old language we spoke
before speech

on posture

“You’ll have to be a warrior in the sense of remaining awake and alert even while you sleep, like a soldier in the midst of battle. Whatever form of interaction you’re engaged in, whether with a person or group of people, for social, economic or sexual commerce (offline or on), whether with an object (a steering wheel for instance), whether with your own internal fantasies and projections, you train yourself to remember to stay mindful of the presence of spirit.

By simply visualizing your spine lengthening upwards and your shoulder and hipbones broadening outwards, your entire physical form will actually expand and grow.

Once your bones have been arranged to allow optimum expansion of the form, it is easy to relax the flesh, by simply visualizing it softening on the bone and sinking towards the ground, counter to the upward pull of the spine. Hence the bones create the shape you want to make, whether in stillness or in motion, and the muscles, tendons and ligaments merely move the bones. This saves you inordinate amounts of energy normally squandered on the muscular strain of holding the body together around a misaligned skeletal structure. Moreover, with the skeleton arranged to facilitate optimum expansion of form and the muscles working more effectively, the increased chi, or energy, in your system can flow freely bringing you the instant benefits of a healing and self-protective energetic ‘sheath’.”

Tao of Internal Alchemy by Barefoot Doctor




Force

Force is very important because the Work says that to do any conscious work on our development, we have to accumulate it. If we constantly use force up by becoming angry, being in arguments, taking everything personally and always being identified, we will have no force to work on our own development. Moreover, by always wasting our force we will be exhausted, find it difficult to do the things we have to do to get through the day, and have no force left for the things we want to do.

Gurdjieff by Gil Friedman

New Year

Niken Anindita aka megatruh is Jakarta based, self-taught digital artist.

I like new years; I like the ritual of pivoting to review the past 12 months and starting anew with minimal baggage.

Some baggage, like habits developed over the year, are valuable —good habits are wise investments. Projects, however, may or may not hold relevance depending upon deliberation.

For some things this annual ritual is about tweaking priorities, for others it’s something new, or something old revisited. But the ritual usually starts with dropping everything carried the year before. A total reset.

Each year ends with a harvest of what came from previous efforts, which may be meager, and a planting of the new year’s seedlings with what was gleaned. And learned. With no regrets for anything incomplete or undone or missing. It is finished. I may restart it, but as something new. The field starts cleared. A system reboot.

Some magical disciplines carry this approach into a daily practice. Before sleep each evening, they review the day in reverse unwinding all the events, watchful for lessons. Leaving the mind ready for restorative sleep with a clean slate. An adjunct practice then imagines the most beautiful image, whatever that might be at the time while drifting off to sleep. Talk about your sleep hygiene!

Jacek Yerka

listen to what living space
tries to tell you
the field intelligence
of our homes are usually out for our best interests
if we honor our residence
it has things to tell
that only places we inhabit can
say when we stop to listen
a larger script
with space between the letters
for a companion signal
it is good to have a home
as an ally
to extend our senses deeper into worlds

I can walk a well lit hall
as if bathed in shadow
I can cross a pedestrian street
while caverns of purgatory
yawn on each side
down the depths of hell
I can carry a conversation
while an ice serpent
writhes across my tongue
and imps of nearby tombs
tug loose sheets of fabric
from my hearing
so yeah
I can hear you, I can see you
just not like you think
ok?

my child

sometimes
I’m gobstruck by infinity
radiating from this moment
threads and arcs of possibilities
sneaking up on it we might observe
as a child down darkened hall, peeking from a bedroom door
the selections made for us constantly
by our relentless thoughts
and judgments and feelings
with our adulting minds
…yet a few children stand in the midst of this bazaar
absorbed with arrays and paths of their own elective
in a smorgasbord of choice
one of the few might be you,
sometimes

Embodied Imagination

by Natcha Einat

Many intricate systems prescribe how to move and utilize energy in the body to achieve specific ends. Activating chakras, awakening kundalini, directing chi, releasing traumas, cleansing auras, channeling reiki. They undertake their tasks with somber precision, controlled methodologies and specific procedures.

But much can be said for learning to play with our own energies firsthand, before being formally indoctrinated. And maybe even in place of. After all, these systems were once discoveries. Who knows what’s left to explore? If it’s like everything reality has revealed so far, the playing field tilts toward infinity.

Be forewarned, however. Attempting this on your own without adult supervision can result in supernatural experiences, unaccountable levity, alien and lucid dreams and an iridescence of aura that attracts the subconscious attention of others.

It is easy to begin. Idle, distracted, uneventful moments of the day can be re-purposed as virtual playgrounds for etheric magery and personal entertainment. You will rapidly collect, invent, discover techniques for yourself by studying the mechanics of those which have the greatest subjective impact. This is easy to self-calibrate, so keep experimenting and your potential will blossom.

Let’s begin.

If you are sitting reading this, you may take a moment to make yourself bigger. Puff out the sense of your boundaries and being into something larger than your physical form. Try expanding yourself to fill the whole room that you are in. Like the Hulk. And why stop there? How about the building? The block? The town? Then shrink back down and become that tiny spot that occupies the pineal gland in the very center of your brain. Nice and compressed into this little dot, now drop this bead of awareness down through yourself and deep into the earth. Fuse with the molten core.

Or turn yourself invisible. How does that feel? How do you do it? Do you just evaporate your energy? Do you vibrate so fast you phase out of existence? Do you blink out? Try all the ways.

Part of the fun (and power) is finding not only things you can do with your energetic form, but creative ways you can do them.

You may find it curious when you start discovering real world effects. For example, reaching out your energetic arm like rubber and tapping someone on the shoulder several people ahead of you in line. What will you think when they turn around puzzled? Coincidence? Perhaps.

Shapeshifting and glamours are entertaining and good practice. Animals can sometimes pick this up when you are doing it and react strangely. People tend to process it more subconsciously but in ways that effect their perception of you.

What happens when you have a pain or negative emotion and engage it on the level of etheric maneuvers? Without getting into gnarly detail, an ancient Tibetan template 1 for this involves identifying the pain or emotion by marking it out with your attention: as a shape, sensation that occupies a certain space and has a certain nature. Bringing attention to it directly instead of labeling it, avoiding or suppressing it. Then imagine plugging yourself into some power. Your god, a deity, the sun, bugs bunny, whatever has juice for your imagination. Then invent/imagine someway for this power to interact with your issue in a manner that transforms it. If it’s bugs bunny, it may involve dynamite. And play it out.

These algorithms become fun to collect once you start gaining experience working with imagination of the body. And if you decide to learn some formal methodology, like spinning a microcosmic orbit through a loop in your body ala qigong, you will be engaging with it on your home turf with awakened sensitivity and enhanced skills.

Some fun techniques and ideas can be found in these books as well:
Time, Space & Knowledge by Tarthang Tulku
Barefoot Doctor’s Guide to the Tao by Stephen Russell
Sixth Sense by Stuart Wilde
Energy Work by Robert Bruce
Beyond OK by Win Wenger

Halloween Story

A symbiotic organism lives in our body, it has a neural network in our gut, and has 10x more cells than we do … in our “own” body. We call it/them bacteria. They are our ancestors, for 3 billion years. They are intimately tied to much of our well-being: physical aspects of digestion, inflammation, immunity and psychological moods, motivations and depression. To name a few. It’s a little creepy, don’t you think? It’s like those parasitic cordyceps. But ours are for the good, right? And that’s my Halloween story for October. Just wanted to get a jump on it.

Zombie-ant parasitic fungus castrated by hyperparasitic fungus

Ant colonies are protected against brain-manipulating parasitic fungi by another fungus

A dead zombie ant infested with the parasitic fungus Cordyceps. Photograph: David Hughes/Penn State University

The modus operandi of the Cordyceps fungi is the stuff of nightmares. These parasites grow inside their insect hosts by feeding off the non-vital organs, and manipulate the hosts’ behaviour so that they can reproduce. When it is ready to produce spores, the fungus grows into the brain and releases chemicals that make the host climb a plant then attach itself near the top. It then kills its host by devouring its brain, before sprouting a mushroom from the top of its head, which disperses its spores as widely as possible.

https://www.theguardian.com/science/neurophilosophy/2012/may/03/zombie-ant-parasitic-fungus