ahogado

I wonder how we might “confront” a serious illness —a death sentence
if we cannot yet navigate our fluctuations of mood and energy
sufficient to realize our daily intentions
will we be awash
in whatever negative thoughts and feelings or self-pity arises
will we finally develop resilience
in the face of death
to step up to life
and our only regret
might be
that we didn’t do it sooner?

will we try to draw power
from what we believe or hope
is coming to save us?

will we finally find a gratitude
not dependent on outcome?