looking out

Today was rather hectic, though I found a current of calm later in the day and began tacking into it. Tomorrow I set sail for Gaia Sagrada, the psychedelic bootcamp, or spiritual retreat by their label. I’m pretty excited. Last week I wrote a set of intentions. Things I wanted to ask the plant teachers. But now I think I just want to be open and ask them to break up the brittleness that mind has built up over the years. The rigidity, the tensions locked unconsciously in the body and mental outlooks. I’m looking for some blue sky, some inner slack, to find my way back to the wonder of simply being in the world while connecting with the mystery. At one time the world seemed so large and numinous and threads of possibility that had nothing to do with progress or order radiated before me attached to the furthest reaches of outer space. But daily life, artificial demands, hardened opinion, has ground my perceptions down to very small, utilitarian circumferences that keep trapping me in their orbits.

So it’s with great gravity I begin this adventure :p Miko wants to go to the valley again, to speak more with Hauchuma, so we have another excursion scheduled about a week after I return. And after we’ve finished these inner journeys, we head to the orient for a month. To regroup

“One cannot live the afternoon of life according to the program of life’s morning; for what was great in the morning will be of little importance in the evening, and what in the morning was true will at evening have become a lie.”